First secondary rejection of 2007

BU med doesn't want me. Surprise, surprise. They're lame and expensive anyway.

The MCAT...once again

Man, I can't believe that I really have to take the freakin MCAT again. During the past month, I hoped and prayed that I would get an interview from just one school. But it's already March. I've been rejected by half of my schools and I'm sure the rest of the small envelopes will come rolling in within the next couple weeks.

Oh well. I can't say it was a good experience, but it was certainly an experience. A grueling, time consuming, frustrating, heart breaking one. The sad thing is that I should have known better. I should have turned in my application earlier. It's my own stupid lazy fault. And here I am paying for it.

Anyway, what's done is done and next time I'm gonna be much more aggressive. I'm taking that damn MCAT again, own that bitch, apply in mid June with my kick ass scores, turn in all my secondaries by the end of June or early July, and then attend all the medical conferences I can. The adcoms of the schools I'm applying to WILL KNOW MY NAME, love me, invite me for a lovely interview, and ACCEPT ME. =)

IF worse comes to worse, and this plan doesn't work out, I'm applying to the Carribeans too. I'm going to be a physician and no one, including my pride will stand in the way.

Tearing my hair out!

I can't take it anymore! I want a school to invite me for an interview already!!! Or they can all reject me! I don't care! Just tell me the final verdict!

It's so hard to study for the MCAT again when all I'm thinking about and hoping for is an interview from a school. Ack! Arg! Aglibrtle! Aghhhh!

I don't want to have to retake the MCAT, reapply, reselect schools, or ask my recommenders for letters again! This whole process is so frustrating! And so embarrassing if I don't get in anywhere! M#$%^&F#$%^&*! B%^&*! AGH! AGH! AGH!

I looked back at my old notes in my MSAR (a guide med schools) and I was so confident back then. I thought I was the shit. What I used to think of as my "back-up" schools are now the ones that I hope will have the heart to send me an invitation. Why? Why?! WHY?!

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Okay, so I have to calm down. I know it's not the end of the world (although right now I'd rather have it be the end). I guess I'm just really upset because I don't have a back-up plan. Right now, I only see myself as a damn good physician and nothing else. Man, I hope someone sees something good in my application for this cycle. Or else I'm gonna go f'n insane and my unfortunate boyfriend and family will have to deal with a depressed Regina for a while.

bleh.

Something random:
"So today, Jesus teaches us that we should be good. Surprise, surprise, surprise."
Fr. Thomas (A priest from my parish, St. Cecilia)
lol....I thought that was hilarious!