Quick Update

1. Big Fin is all better. No more poofy eyes, although I'm slightly worried about his tail because I think it looks shorter. Hopefully it's just me being paranoid.
2. I got rigid gas permeable contact lenses. Why? Well, I have (bad?) astigmatism, and with the soft toric lenses, I couldn't read clearly when I looked down because they kept shifting out of place. So now although I can see even clearer with the RGPs, I can't comfortably look foward or up after blinking because it keeps shifting on my cornea. This gets really annoying because I can feel it. My eyes better get used to with these by the end of the week, or else I'm just gonna have to rely on my glasses for the rest of my life or save up for lasik eye surgery. *Please let it work!*
3. Life is stressful. I took another verbal test and my score plumitted! (God, I hope this was just a mean April fool's prank.) Hopefully I'll get decent scores next time. =T I really want to make it to a decent med school!!!!
4. One request: Please keep me and Carlos in your prayers, as you are always in mine. Pray for strength and guidance. Unfortunately, we are both in very tight situations, and need help to see the light. Thanks.

I hope your week goes well!

One more thing: Sometimes, after blogging, I like to surf random blogs by clicking on "Next Blog." Usually, I end up seeing visiting blogs that are really artistic. They have beautiful pictures of nature, or I'll end up on a couple's website and I get to see cute couply pictures, or I'll land up on a crafty blog and just browse through their crafty items. I also like it when I see a foreign blog, like from Mexico, Spain, or Germany, etc. But tonight for some reason after a couple good blogs, I ended up on some demented guy's blog with disturbing masochistic pictures. I quickly clicked out to see the next random blog and then some horny girl's blog pops up, followed by another horny girl's blog and that's when I just called it quits. I don't think I'm gonna randomly surf blogs for a while. *shivers* Darn you weird people that ruin fun and innocent browsing!

Tearing my hair out!

I can't take it anymore! I want a school to invite me for an interview already!!! Or they can all reject me! I don't care! Just tell me the final verdict!

It's so hard to study for the MCAT again when all I'm thinking about and hoping for is an interview from a school. Ack! Arg! Aglibrtle! Aghhhh!

I don't want to have to retake the MCAT, reapply, reselect schools, or ask my recommenders for letters again! This whole process is so frustrating! And so embarrassing if I don't get in anywhere! M#$%^&F#$%^&*! B%^&*! AGH! AGH! AGH!

I looked back at my old notes in my MSAR (a guide med schools) and I was so confident back then. I thought I was the shit. What I used to think of as my "back-up" schools are now the ones that I hope will have the heart to send me an invitation. Why? Why?! WHY?!

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Okay, so I have to calm down. I know it's not the end of the world (although right now I'd rather have it be the end). I guess I'm just really upset because I don't have a back-up plan. Right now, I only see myself as a damn good physician and nothing else. Man, I hope someone sees something good in my application for this cycle. Or else I'm gonna go f'n insane and my unfortunate boyfriend and family will have to deal with a depressed Regina for a while.

bleh.

Something random:
"So today, Jesus teaches us that we should be good. Surprise, surprise, surprise."
Fr. Thomas (A priest from my parish, St. Cecilia)
lol....I thought that was hilarious!